The Fox
       
     
The Fox
       
     
Thresholds (Installation Image)
       
     
Thresholds (Installation Image)
       
     
       
     
Bunnykiller
       
     
Barred Owl
       
     
Cub's Mouse
       
     
Bluebird
       
     
Baby Crab
       
     
Prairie Dog
       
     
Spider
       
     
The Squirrel
       
     
Other remains
       
     
Other remains
       
     
Other remains
       
     
Other remains
       
     
 printing feathers in situ
       
     
 printing feathers in situ
       
     
feather3.jpeg
       
     
feather2.jpeg
       
     
Feathers, rescued, ongoing
       
     
Everyplace, Everywhere
       
     
Cyanotype boats in situ
       
     
Offering
       
     
Offering
       
     
The Fox
       
     
The Fox
The Fox
       
     
The Fox

It's been a sad week, seeing so many animals struck on the road. The intoxication of spring has perhaps made them too lively, and they forget the danger of humans. This sweet fox was warm when I went to pull her off the road. She was a young mother. I felt she needed a burial in honor of her life, and made a memorial imprint. It's not an ideal day for cyanotypes, the sun dips behind clouds and the wind blows everything everywhere, the paper, my hair, her fur, and the stream of water from the outdoor shower, everywhere. The lizards and hummingbirds and my bird crush, the Pacific flycatcher, are here to keep our spirits up. Later, Kate will come over and we'll bury the fox on the hillside with a view facing west as the sun sinks below the ridge.

Thresholds (Installation Image)
       
     
Thresholds (Installation Image)
Thresholds (Installation Image)
       
     
Thresholds (Installation Image)
       
     
Bunnykiller
       
     
Bunnykiller
Barred Owl
       
     
Barred Owl

Kickapoo River Valley, Wisconsin

Cub's Mouse
       
     
Cub's Mouse

Madison, WI

Bluebird
       
     
Bluebird

En route from Chaco Canyon

Baby Crab
       
     
Baby Crab

Lopez Island, Washington

Prairie Dog
       
     
Prairie Dog
Spider
       
     
Spider

In the bed at the K-Shack

Two Peak, Taos Mesa, New Mexico

The Squirrel
       
     
The Squirrel

I was feeling increasingly irritated walking up the road. Nothing about it was peaceful. Cars passed constantly, and every five minutes a dump truck barreled by. It was garbage day. The truck would pass me, clanking and rattling, and leaving behind the stench of decay. Then I would catch up to it as it collected garbage, pass it, and then again, it would pass me. It would happen like this, a leapfrog, as the heat of the sun beat down. I was hugging the edge of the road, trying to take note of the trees, the light, and the plants around me, attempting a walking meditation, but instead, the lingering smells of garbage and diesel, the roar of engines and the squealing of brakes of massive construction trucks. I was thinking about j and his dispassionate nature towards me, and ­how I wished I had stepped away from him that very first night we met, under the full moon. I learned everything I needed to know then, but I was seduced by the moonlight and continued forward until it came true and I’m left with the same lesson I can’t seem to learn. Maybe that lesson is to stop moving towards, but to remain still. It was then that I saw the squirrel. Its head was crushed into the asphalt, but its body intact, a slender string of entrails fanning downhill. It was fresh, and I could smell both the blood and the shit. I pulled the bag of cyanotype paper out of my backpack. I would make my first imprint of this walk here, on the road, not of leaves or stones, but of death. A metaphor for the thoughts filling my mind. Perhaps the squirrel, too, should have remained still. But, like myself, that is against its nature. I placed a sheet under its paw. Then I placed another under its tail, where it curved elegantly along the edge. I stepped back, looking, and thinking where to place the third one. I always prefer things in threes. It was then that an enormous dump truck came towards me. As it gained speed upon descent, I stepped back another few inches. The wheels ran right over the squirrel, squeezing its guts across the paper and into the air, fluttering down the road. I stood there with my mouth open and my arms stretched wide. The rush of air and blood so close, I looked down, imagining pieces of intestines clinging to my bare thighs.

You poor thing. I could no longer make out your tail, there was no real recognizable form left of you. I stared at you for a long time, squirrel. I had meant to make your imprint in respect of your life. I dug into my backpack and pulled out my bag of snacks, emptied it, placed the two sheets of paper inside, and sealed the bag. I carefully tucked it into a dark pocket inside my backpack, put it back on, and continued my walk uphill.

Other remains
       
     
Other remains

Bears Ears National Monument, Utah

Other remains
       
     
Other remains

Bears Ears National Monument, Utah

Other remains
       
     
Other remains

Blackhawk Island, Wisconsin River, WI

Other remains
       
     
Other remains

Blackhawk Island, Wisconsin River, WI

 printing feathers in situ
       
     

printing feathers in situ

 printing feathers in situ
       
     

printing feathers in situ

feather3.jpeg
       
     
feather2.jpeg
       
     
Feathers, rescued, ongoing
       
     
Feathers, rescued, ongoing

Various sizes, paper, and toning.

Everyplace, Everywhere
       
     
Everyplace, Everywhere

Ziatype from scanned Type 55 film.

Cyanotype boats in situ
       
     
Cyanotype boats in situ
Offering
       
     
Offering

Cyanotype memorial boats on plinth of salvaged black walnut

Offering
       
     
Offering

Cyanotype memorial boats on plinth of salvaged black walnut